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Thursday, November 11, 2004
i am gifted, so are you!
WOW. three days of the superteen camp is over. for three consecutive days, it's just 8 to 9, 8 to 9, 8 to 9. but it doesnt matter. cos it was REALLY REALLY fun (not forgettin, it's enriching too)
before i went for the course, i felt lyk..it was a DUH for me. and frankly speakin, i was in the heck-care state. yes, i listen. but it's just one ear in and the other ear out. it was something like that on the first day. the trainers are HYSTERICAL. so i just enjoyed myself.
games are a reflection of life
but, it was on the second day when adam did the 'wake-up call' and 'emotion-triggering' thing, before i started to sense the essence of this camp. so basically, adam switched off his wacky mode and started to yell at us. big time. it was intimidating and rather..discouraging. then came the emotional part. in the dark theatrette, with adam's soothing yet provoking voice, 3/4 of us broke down. first you could hear the sniffs and sobs. the next thing i knew, there were wailings. my god. i was highly irritated. i mean, hallo, i was crying too but i dun see the need to WAIL and cry THAT loudly. anyhow, the tears kept flowing. somehow. it was kinda embarassin but whatever la, everyone else were breakin down too. yepp. and after the whole long session of, what i call.. pyscho-ing, adam gave us time to go round hugging. surprisingly, it felt good :)
for things to change, i MUST change first
mm. and the other two trainers. gary n cherie. gary's this dude with a major sense of humour. and now i agree, he's perhaps even funnier than adam. i LOVE gary's ghost stories, together with all his life experiences stories. all so drama mama. hahas. and cherie. she speaks friggin fast ( to show off!) lol. with her horny voice (to seduce boys) and her british accent (it sounds really nice btw). oh and! there's melvin. aka handsome. he's the DJ of this camp so he's always playin, correction, blasting great music for us. rahhh. that's perhaps why i always try not to be late. heh. can just sit around and listen to music before the camp begins.
ps: i just recalled adam's fav line " i'm a nice man. i love kids. hee hee hee". he says it in sucha sadistic way, you'll always crack up :D
do whatever it takes
and so..i've been spending my breakfast, lunch and dinner with eli, elvis, naima, yumin, jiamin and heeboon since monday, squeezin with the others on the bench yet feelin cosy, snackin on all sorts of junk food and lastly, jumpin in and out of the bench to get to the toilet during breaks. of course, the only reason we can jump so freely is becos we sit at the back row, at the corner. heh.
choice = journey.
ok. so today's the last day of the camp. went thru the same routine for the day 'cept that for the final 3 hours, we had our parents coming down. something like a closing ceremony, yes? mm. adam talked and talked. finally it was the turn of some of us to give a speech. my god. the emotional cycle started all over again. cedarians went up to declare the changes they find in themselves, and most importantly, declaring how much they appreciated their parents. to the extent that they were breakin down in front of the mike. they regretted letting their parents down, blah blah. and out popped the words "i love you mom and dad". loud and clear. so we had the whole scene of the moms dabbing their eyes with tissue and those parents whom had their daugthers up there, they were so touched they cried. rahh. i was amazed.
and before we left, all of us sang the song 'reach'. ( no, not your 'reach out for the stars..' song) anyway. it was heartwarming and the memories of these three days will linger. for once, i wasnt in my heck-care attitude. this camp really is somewhat different -smiles. and mel loves it!
there is no failure. only learning experience
PPS: to nonsensical. i was pleasantly shocked when i read the first part of your msg. it proves that you still realize. you know that you have caused disappointments. yes, you admitted. but the other half of your msg shows your unwillingness to clear up the mess you created. as i told you, quit running away. i have been waiting for you to follow up on your explanations, and maybe even attempting to clear all this up. never have i said that i want you out of my life but you assume so. the past does not equal future. all the lies..they are a thing of the past. it is possible for us to continue as n and a, as long as you are willing to make the choice to change. every choice carries a consequence. you have the power to choose. to change for the better? or to continue running away? your legna has always been there.
before i went for the course, i felt lyk..it was a DUH for me. and frankly speakin, i was in the heck-care state. yes, i listen. but it's just one ear in and the other ear out. it was something like that on the first day. the trainers are HYSTERICAL. so i just enjoyed myself.
games are a reflection of life
but, it was on the second day when adam did the 'wake-up call' and 'emotion-triggering' thing, before i started to sense the essence of this camp. so basically, adam switched off his wacky mode and started to yell at us. big time. it was intimidating and rather..discouraging. then came the emotional part. in the dark theatrette, with adam's soothing yet provoking voice, 3/4 of us broke down. first you could hear the sniffs and sobs. the next thing i knew, there were wailings. my god. i was highly irritated. i mean, hallo, i was crying too but i dun see the need to WAIL and cry THAT loudly. anyhow, the tears kept flowing. somehow. it was kinda embarassin but whatever la, everyone else were breakin down too. yepp. and after the whole long session of, what i call.. pyscho-ing, adam gave us time to go round hugging. surprisingly, it felt good :)
for things to change, i MUST change first
mm. and the other two trainers. gary n cherie. gary's this dude with a major sense of humour. and now i agree, he's perhaps even funnier than adam. i LOVE gary's ghost stories, together with all his life experiences stories. all so drama mama. hahas. and cherie. she speaks friggin fast ( to show off!) lol. with her horny voice (to seduce boys) and her british accent (it sounds really nice btw). oh and! there's melvin. aka handsome. he's the DJ of this camp so he's always playin, correction, blasting great music for us. rahhh. that's perhaps why i always try not to be late. heh. can just sit around and listen to music before the camp begins.
ps: i just recalled adam's fav line " i'm a nice man. i love kids. hee hee hee". he says it in sucha sadistic way, you'll always crack up :D
do whatever it takes
and so..i've been spending my breakfast, lunch and dinner with eli, elvis, naima, yumin, jiamin and heeboon since monday, squeezin with the others on the bench yet feelin cosy, snackin on all sorts of junk food and lastly, jumpin in and out of the bench to get to the toilet during breaks. of course, the only reason we can jump so freely is becos we sit at the back row, at the corner. heh.
choice = journey.
ok. so today's the last day of the camp. went thru the same routine for the day 'cept that for the final 3 hours, we had our parents coming down. something like a closing ceremony, yes? mm. adam talked and talked. finally it was the turn of some of us to give a speech. my god. the emotional cycle started all over again. cedarians went up to declare the changes they find in themselves, and most importantly, declaring how much they appreciated their parents. to the extent that they were breakin down in front of the mike. they regretted letting their parents down, blah blah. and out popped the words "i love you mom and dad". loud and clear. so we had the whole scene of the moms dabbing their eyes with tissue and those parents whom had their daugthers up there, they were so touched they cried. rahh. i was amazed.
and before we left, all of us sang the song 'reach'. ( no, not your 'reach out for the stars..' song) anyway. it was heartwarming and the memories of these three days will linger. for once, i wasnt in my heck-care attitude. this camp really is somewhat different -smiles. and mel loves it!
there is no failure. only learning experience
PPS: to nonsensical. i was pleasantly shocked when i read the first part of your msg. it proves that you still realize. you know that you have caused disappointments. yes, you admitted. but the other half of your msg shows your unwillingness to clear up the mess you created. as i told you, quit running away. i have been waiting for you to follow up on your explanations, and maybe even attempting to clear all this up. never have i said that i want you out of my life but you assume so. the past does not equal future. all the lies..they are a thing of the past. it is possible for us to continue as n and a, as long as you are willing to make the choice to change. every choice carries a consequence. you have the power to choose. to change for the better? or to continue running away? your legna has always been there.